the truth is

im just starting to live a life anew
forgetting the past and throwing all the memories
i hate to tell this but
i've been sad because of you
i've been hurt
and now i am accepting the truth
you are the reason for the tears that i was holding back
i never meant to feel that way
but i can't help it...it was so damn painful

i am selfish
i knew i would fall for your warm arms
i knew i would long for your hands holding mine passionately
i knew we would end up like this
not talking to each other
not the way we used to be
i knew i would be alone again
i knew you'd belong to her
but still i didn't hold back of that feelings

i just did say that out loud
i whispered it to you
i told the world how i was so inlove with you
and now that world didn't want to look at me
that world didn't want to listen to my heart
and that world is at your side

what am i expecting for?
just happiness
your happiness
her happiness

what am i missing right now?
her laughter
your jokes
our precious stolen times together

what am i doing right now?
opening a wonderful gift from HIM
wiping my tears
praying for the best